cooking in our "kitchen"

These last few weeks have flown by. I was just looking at pictures of my honeymoon and it seems like it was forever ago. It's hard to believe it has only been two months. Matt and I are still trying to get settled into life here in Tennessee as a married couple. Space has been limited and we don't have permanent housing yet. As for now we are content in our one room bedroom suite upstairs in the base!

This last month has been somewhat of a struggle for me. There

have been so many changes in such a short period of time, and let's just say the transition has been slightly more difficult than I had hoped for. My 'new wife's package' must be stuck in the mail somewhere. You know the package; the one that comes with the cooking, cleaning, ironing, grocery shopping, and time and money management instructions. Wait, there isn't a package? Crap. Eh, who needs a package anyway. Trial and error is the best way to learn anyways right?! 

Marriage has been such a fun challenge. There are so many things that you learn about each other. Those lovable quirks and habits that didn't seem to be there when you were dating. : ) But God has really been teaching Matt and I about being willing to let go of the way we think things should be and to start asking Him what He wants. I have felt such a heaviness the past couple of weeks as I have been focusing on what I think we have a right to versus what the Lord is teaching us and why He has put us exactly where He has for a reason. The minute that we relinquished our rights and our "control" over certain situations last night I felt like I could breathe again, and that peace I have been missing, that peace that He promises us when we step out in obedience, the peace that says that He is in control despite the world telling me otherwise, THAT peace washed over me and a new wave of excitement for where He has us now and for what is to come overwhelmed me and filled me with a renewed sense of appreciation for Him and His infinite wisdom and unending patience!

What an amazing opportunity it has been to go through these chaotic and trying times with Matt. From the beginning of our relationship we have been surrounded by trying circumstances that have given us such a strong foundation. I have been blessed to be married to a man who desires God's will and I am humbled by his heart to serve God and me. I would not want to be learning theses lessons with anybody else!